Karnstantine
31-10-09, 12:51
This message, I believed, was far too long to post into the Bye-Bye, See Ya thread. So, I'm making a thread for it.
Wellp, since I'm back... I guess now is the time to explain just why I was grounded from any and all electronic entertainment/internet communication.
It started when I was getting on the bus. A girl whom I didn't particularly like was standing in my way, purposely. I said:
"Move."
She heard me, but did nothing.
"Move."
Again, more of the same.
"Move?"
She motioned that I had more that I had to say.
"Move, please?"
She motioned again.
I then proceeded to have the most ill-conceived and poorly justifiable train of thought to a running joke wherein she thought I called her fat because I said that I don't like her sitting next to me because she takes up all the seat I give her. Read: She continues to scoot in until I'm pressed against the wall.
So I proceed to say one of the dumbest things of all time.
"Move please... fatty?"
At which point, she gasped and kicked me in a way that I nearly fell out of the bus. I clambered back up the "landing" of the bus stairs, and stopped. She took aim, and she kicked again. Given how she was kicking, I thought she was trying to stomp my genitals. So, in my state of unthinking reaction, I growled, she tried to run, I put her in a headlock. It was at this time that the bus driver broke it up, and she ran to the back of the bus and started crying. This was the time when the "Oh SHIT"s started coming. When I got to the back, everybody was screaming at me. When I put her in a headlock, she apparently couldn't breathe. So, coupled with the screaming, the full comprehension of just what all I had just [radio edit]ed up in the past five minutes, and my already fowl mood coupled with the rage at myself for being so ignorant to a female, I proceeded to violently slam my head against the bus window.
Then, the fourth time, the window ceased to be. Yes, I smashed out a bus window with my head. At this time, the "OH [radio edit]!"s were coming, both mentally and verbally. I was taken off the bus by the school's bus director, and they called my mother to pick me up. I hadn't noticed, but after they called my mother, the school principal realized that I was bleeding out of my ear. I proceeded to recount, through tears of fear about just what was going to happen, and rage of what I had just done, to the best of my ability, what happened. Then my mother came. She was somewhat jovial to the faculty, then when we got to the car. And she let me have it. She had never been so disappointed, and this was after I had gotten her to lay off my case about potentially being homicidal. So, that evening I had to sit in our living-room, and think. I already knew I had been an idiot in what I had done, but the sitting made me realize just what all consequences there were. I could have been kicked off of the bus, and been unable to attend Vo-tech, and thereby be held back a year in school. I could have been suspended. My friends might not ever want to talk to me again, and so on.
The next day, I was driven to school. I then got called down to the office during the latter part of my first period class. They explained that the girl who I had scorned was just going to let bygones be. They weren't going to suspend me from the bus for a few days, I would just have to pay for the window. But, to think more about what I did, I was still grounded for the rest of that week, and the next (bringing us up to now).
I got lucky this time. And, nothing like it is going to happen again. Not at my fault.
I understand if you think less of me. If any of you don't want to talk to me for a while, I also understand.
This message is going to be posted on the sites I visit.
Wellp, since I'm back... I guess now is the time to explain just why I was grounded from any and all electronic entertainment/internet communication.
It started when I was getting on the bus. A girl whom I didn't particularly like was standing in my way, purposely. I said:
"Move."
She heard me, but did nothing.
"Move."
Again, more of the same.
"Move?"
She motioned that I had more that I had to say.
"Move, please?"
She motioned again.
I then proceeded to have the most ill-conceived and poorly justifiable train of thought to a running joke wherein she thought I called her fat because I said that I don't like her sitting next to me because she takes up all the seat I give her. Read: She continues to scoot in until I'm pressed against the wall.
So I proceed to say one of the dumbest things of all time.
"Move please... fatty?"
At which point, she gasped and kicked me in a way that I nearly fell out of the bus. I clambered back up the "landing" of the bus stairs, and stopped. She took aim, and she kicked again. Given how she was kicking, I thought she was trying to stomp my genitals. So, in my state of unthinking reaction, I growled, she tried to run, I put her in a headlock. It was at this time that the bus driver broke it up, and she ran to the back of the bus and started crying. This was the time when the "Oh SHIT"s started coming. When I got to the back, everybody was screaming at me. When I put her in a headlock, she apparently couldn't breathe. So, coupled with the screaming, the full comprehension of just what all I had just [radio edit]ed up in the past five minutes, and my already fowl mood coupled with the rage at myself for being so ignorant to a female, I proceeded to violently slam my head against the bus window.
Then, the fourth time, the window ceased to be. Yes, I smashed out a bus window with my head. At this time, the "OH [radio edit]!"s were coming, both mentally and verbally. I was taken off the bus by the school's bus director, and they called my mother to pick me up. I hadn't noticed, but after they called my mother, the school principal realized that I was bleeding out of my ear. I proceeded to recount, through tears of fear about just what was going to happen, and rage of what I had just done, to the best of my ability, what happened. Then my mother came. She was somewhat jovial to the faculty, then when we got to the car. And she let me have it. She had never been so disappointed, and this was after I had gotten her to lay off my case about potentially being homicidal. So, that evening I had to sit in our living-room, and think. I already knew I had been an idiot in what I had done, but the sitting made me realize just what all consequences there were. I could have been kicked off of the bus, and been unable to attend Vo-tech, and thereby be held back a year in school. I could have been suspended. My friends might not ever want to talk to me again, and so on.
The next day, I was driven to school. I then got called down to the office during the latter part of my first period class. They explained that the girl who I had scorned was just going to let bygones be. They weren't going to suspend me from the bus for a few days, I would just have to pay for the window. But, to think more about what I did, I was still grounded for the rest of that week, and the next (bringing us up to now).
I got lucky this time. And, nothing like it is going to happen again. Not at my fault.
I understand if you think less of me. If any of you don't want to talk to me for a while, I also understand.
This message is going to be posted on the sites I visit.